Road to Graduation

"I wish that I can be such a careless person.

I wish I don't give a fu*king shit bout others.

I wish that I can ignore this feelings.

I wish that I got another chance to rewind the time."

But,

I know I can't.

Because this is me,

I can't change the fact that He made me like this.

Degree loading - - - - - - 90%. Presentation, benda aku paling tak suka, DONE. Somehow I'm pround of myself. Selalu cakap tak boleh buat itu,t ak boleh buat ini, but then, everythings goes well. Alhamdulillah. Syukur dekat Allah sebab bagi kekuatan, bagi semangat, bagi harapan utk teruskan perjuangan dekat jalan ni. 

Jalan yang, hmm I don't even know why I choose this path back then. Since masuk belajar engineering, mula-mula mcm best. Makin lama makin lama mcm, hmm I'm not suitable for this. Deep in my heart, I know that I'm not gonna be an engineer. Boleh bayang? 4 tahun belajar engineering, tak pernah sekali pun terdetik nak teruskan dalam engineering field. 

But somehow I believe that He got plan for me. I know the fact that takdir boleh di ubah, sebab Allah dah letak pilihan tu sendiri kat tangan kita. And the rezeki itself, semua dah diaatur. Cara kita je yg buat rezeki tu dtg mcm mana. In a proper way, or not. Hmmm.

"I miss blogging."

Everytime emotional mcmni, mesti ayat tu keluar. Dulu ingat lagi, everyday blogging. Semua benda nak cerita. I miss that time. Tulis everything, tak kisah pun sape nak baca. Masa tu tak tau pape, zaman nak kenal dunia. Now? Totally different world for me. Emosi sbb apa ni? Emosi sbb orang. Sebab yg tak sepatutnya beremosi. Sigh. Terlalu sensitif. Sensitiviti yg tak pernah came out in front of others. 

Dah lah, cukup. Sebelum tu, say hi to this one friend of mine. Puteri Anis. Say cheese!