1 WEEK?!

Alhamdulillah, it has been almost 4 months since me and her getting engaged. Right now on this day, exactly another one week or to make it look longer, another 7 freaking days we'll getting married. WOW!

There's nothing much to think about. Or to be honest, I couldn't think what to think. Funny. 

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For tonight, I just feel to write something. Anything. Everything? No not everything here. Well I'm not the one who like to tell everyone about everything I guess? 

Hmm am I prepared enough to be someone husband? Are you prepared dear raimy to hold all those responsibilities? Time will tell you. As long as you keep improving yourself towards a better one, in sha Allah I think there should be no problem. 

Scared? Of course! 

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I'm lost of words but there's a lot things running in my mind right now. Will try to be active again on writing this blog sooner cause I'm tired of social media(s).

Am Not Grow-ing

Hi.

It's been a while.
Feels like many things happened to fast.
Too much to handle.

I do miss everyone a lot.
When raimy is just being raimy.
Is he growing? Are you growing?

Well, everyone is going old.
Things are not happening like what you want,
what you plan sometimes.

Still don't know what I want to achieve in this life.
I just know one, but not here, it's hereafter. Paradise.
But... I'm weak.

It's suck. Being always lost to the bad side of me.
Maintaining one good deed is very hard to.
But you just go to keep trying, bro.

Dear future, I am afraid of you.

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Away

I've been away from You for so long.

I've been distracted by things that does not matter for hereafter. 

I've been waiting for someone, or something that can always remind me of You. Again.

Just do not lose hope on me yet. 

Cause I know you've been watching over me.

Giving me test again and again.

To see how far I can keep myself from not remembering and worshipping You.

Oh Allah, forgive me.

Help and guide me to enter Jannah.